Monthly Archives: March, 2012
Breaking the Cycle – the bad habit of ex-ing
Once upon a time when a break up occurred, I would collect everything that reminded me of my newly acquired ex in a box: pictures, letters, mementos, small gifts, etc. By closing the lid and putting the box away in the closet, there was time to heal; to move forward. Sometime down the road, it …
Waiting
It has been more than three weeks since my last date. In that time, I have socialized with friends, taken care of my family and tried to work on myself. I have had a couple of dates lined up that were canceled due to the impossibility of being in two places at one time: namely …
Inside my Mind -written for a friend
Class finishes – students are gone. Erasing the marker board, I turn to find you standing behind me. Surprised, I drop the eraser and try to step back, but the board stops me. You smile as you slide you hand behind my head and bend down to press your lips to mine. As your tongue …
Through the Eyes of a Child
My husband was in the city attending a poly event with his girlfriend. Knowing that my latest ex would be attending as well, I had asked his wife and his daughter over for dinner. I didn’t want to lose touch simply because he and I are not speaking. It wasn’t fair to the developing friendship …
Green-eyed Monster Strikes Again
The green-eyed monster struck tonight. I am not prone to jealous fits. When I am feeling anxious or insecure with a relationship, I usually analyze where the feeling is coming from and set out to correct it by asking for reassurance. I have always strove to get along well with my partners significant others. I …
Circles and Transitions
It is my belief that relationships are cyclic. The highs in the relationship correspond to one portion of the circle whereas the lows would be represented by the opposite. Within the 20+ years of my marriage we have gone through many cycles. There have been times that we have moved slowly or more quickly through …
Polyamorous and … failed.
Well it’s over. I am at the part now that I pick up the shattered pieces of my heart, dust them off and go hide for a while. I don’t know if I will ever find what I need. I had such high hopes for this last relationship. Hope enough that I began to plan …
I am polyamorous and … failing. Part 2
We talked last night via text, the boyfriend and I. I am loathe to call him the ex-boyfriend because I still have hope that it is not over. I am not sure that he sees my point of view yet, but I think he is trying. He asked what I wanted him to do, but …
I am polyamorous and … failing. Part 1
The shower is cold. I have sat here in the corner past the time the hot water ran out. The steam was supposed to clear out my head and nose. Seems the only difference is that now I am wet and shivering – the snot is still there, the tears still spill down my face, …
I won!
One of my stories was published on the web at http://lookingthrough.us/ . It made me so excited that I had to tell everyone, well just about everyone. First I sent a few im’s. Then I retweeted. Finally, I couldn’t stand it anymore and posted to Facebook. It took me a long while to do the …
